tomorrow

Out of nowhere y’all. Straight off the pages of a journal I kept during darker times. Way before Lovie and the trips. I remember the guy who wrote it. I loved him even if I did feel sorry for him. Because he was lost. But at least he knew it. I think that’s why I loved him so.Do y’all know what this is about? I do.

tomorrow

it is what it is, and it was what it was.
but it was never just because.
everything is built on trust
when you forsake your honor for your lust.
turns ashes to ashes and dust to dust.
for pretty is as pretty does.

-jco-

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About john cave osborne

John Cave Osborne is a writer whose work has appeared on such sites as DisneyBaby, Babble, YahooShine, TLC and the Huffington Post. He was also referenced by Jezebel one time, but he’s pretty sure they were making fun of him. He and his wife, Caroline, live with their five children and spastic dog in Knoxville, TN. Nothing annoys him more than joke-heavy bios written in the third person, with the possible exception of Corey Feldman.

  • http://mitchellonline.com Tyrone M.

    It’s simple and beautiful.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      thanks, tyrone! that made my day. i think tough times yield beauty, and that was written over a decade ago during a real pressure cooker. i love reading it, though. it’s why i write. it reminds me of who i was before i became who i am, which, in turn, reminds me that i’ve still not become who i’m gonna be.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      thanks, tyrone! that made my day. i think tough times yield beauty, and that was written over a decade ago during a real pressure cooker. i love reading it, though. it’s why i write. it reminds me of who i was before i became who i am, which, in turn, reminds me that i’ve still not become who i’m gonna be.

  • http://mitchellonline.com Tyrone M.

    It’s simple and beautiful.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      thanks, tyrone! that made my day. i think tough times yield beauty, and that was written over a decade ago during a real pressure cooker. i love reading it, though. it’s why i write. it reminds me of who i was before i became who i am, which, in turn, reminds me that i’ve still not become who i’m gonna be.

  • Jeff Pugh

    I think we’ve all been there at one point in our lives. You’ve captured it in a few words better than a 1000 word post could.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      @DOD and jeff — indeed, we all have been at low place in our lives. places where we find ourselves with a lower common denominator than we’d like to think, hence the honor among thieves concept expressed w/ “everything is built on trust when you forsake your honor for your lust.” but just to be overly clear, these were words i wrote down over a decade ago. i ran across them recently and for some reason, i decided to put them out there today.

      don’t want lovie to get all freaked out thinking i’m having a current-day existential meltdown! you’re both great men. thanks for your thoughts.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      @DOD and jeff — indeed, we all have been at low place in our lives. places where we find ourselves with a lower common denominator than we’d like to think, hence the honor among thieves concept expressed w/ “everything is built on trust when you forsake your honor for your lust.” but just to be overly clear, these were words i wrote down over a decade ago. i ran across them recently and for some reason, i decided to put them out there today.

      don’t want lovie to get all freaked out thinking i’m having a current-day existential meltdown! you’re both great men. thanks for your thoughts.

  • Jeff Pugh

    I think we’ve all been there at one point in our lives. You’ve captured it in a few words better than a 1000 word post could.

  • Jeff Pugh

    I think we’ve all been there at one point in our lives. You’ve captured it in a few words better than a 1000 word post could.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      @DOD and jeff — indeed, we all have been at low place in our lives. places where we find ourselves with a lower common denominator than we’d like to think, hence the honor among thieves concept expressed w/ “everything is built on trust when you forsake your honor for your lust.” but just to be overly clear, these were words i wrote down over a decade ago. i ran across them recently and for some reason, i decided to put them out there today.

      don’t want lovie to get all freaked out thinking i’m having a current-day existential meltdown! you’re both great men. thanks for your thoughts.

  • http://dadofdivas.blogspot.com Dad of Divas

    Nice job John… I agree with Jeff…we’ve all been there and you truly captured the feeling of all of us who have!

  • http://dadofdivas.blogspot.com Dad of Divas

    Nice job John… I agree with Jeff…we’ve all been there and you truly captured the feeling of all of us who have!

  • http://dadofdivas.blogspot.com Dad of Divas

    Nice job John… I agree with Jeff…we’ve all been there and you truly captured the feeling of all of us who have!

  • http://www.didactic-pirate.blogspot.com Didactic Pirate

    Why have I not discovered this blog before now?
    Following. Starting….. now.

  • http://www.didactic-pirate.blogspot.com Didactic Pirate

    Why have I not discovered this blog before now?
    Following. Starting….. now.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      thanks, my friend. pls send along my regards to your wife, who, if i’m not mistaken, is an attorney. and GL with the throbbing vein in her forehead. LOL. seriously, thanks for the visit. hope it’s not your last.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      thanks, my friend. pls send along my regards to your wife, who, if i’m not mistaken, is an attorney. and GL with the throbbing vein in her forehead. LOL. seriously, thanks for the visit. hope it’s not your last.

  • http://www.didactic-pirate.blogspot.com Didactic Pirate

    Why have I not discovered this blog before now?
    Following. Starting….. now.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      thanks, my friend. pls send along my regards to your wife, who, if i’m not mistaken, is an attorney. and GL with the throbbing vein in her forehead. LOL. seriously, thanks for the visit. hope it’s not your last.

  • http://surprisedmom.blogspot.com SurprisedMom

    You have captured beautifully a place where most have visited. I don’t know if most can see any beauty, any light when we are fighting in the darkness. You must have, or at least felt it. Thanks for sharing. There’s a lot of life lessons here.

  • http://surprisedmom.blogspot.com SurprisedMom

    You have captured beautifully a place where most have visited. I don’t know if most can see any beauty, any light when we are fighting in the darkness. You must have, or at least felt it. Thanks for sharing. There’s a lot of life lessons here.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      thank you. pain to me is often laced w/ beauty. most of *my* favorite of the stuff i write comes from that spot. like the posts on holliday. there’s magic in the melancholy. you just gotta be brave enough to seek it out.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      thank you. pain to me is often laced w/ beauty. most of *my* favorite of the stuff i write comes from that spot. like the posts on holliday. there’s magic in the melancholy. you just gotta be brave enough to seek it out.

  • http://surprisedmom.blogspot.com SurprisedMom

    You have captured beautifully a place where most have visited. I don’t know if most can see any beauty, any light when we are fighting in the darkness. You must have, or at least felt it. Thanks for sharing. There’s a lot of life lessons here.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      thank you. pain to me is often laced w/ beauty. most of *my* favorite of the stuff i write comes from that spot. like the posts on holliday. there’s magic in the melancholy. you just gotta be brave enough to seek it out.

  • http://wwwjackbenimble.blogspot.com/ Jack

    This is what blogging is about, or so it seems to me.

  • http://wwwjackbenimble.blogspot.com/ Jack

    This is what blogging is about, or so it seems to me.

  • http://wwwjackbenimble.blogspot.com/ Jack

    This is what blogging is about, or so it seems to me.

  • http://clarkkentslunchbox.blogspot.com/ Clark Kent’s Lunchbox

    Wow John. I felt the power of that one right in the gut. The thing about those moments in our life (and you know I’ve been there too… haven’t told you all the stories yet but eventually), but back to the importance of those moments is that it makes us value the real connections we have with people who care about us today.

    For a guy that can do a Elmo / Rodney Dangerfield impression like no one else, you sure know how to get raw and honest.

    kudos!

  • http://clarkkentslunchbox.blogspot.com/ Clark Kent’s Lunchbox

    Wow John. I felt the power of that one right in the gut. The thing about those moments in our life (and you know I’ve been there too… haven’t told you all the stories yet but eventually), but back to the importance of those moments is that it makes us value the real connections we have with people who care about us today.

    For a guy that can do a Elmo / Rodney Dangerfield impression like no one else, you sure know how to get raw and honest.

    kudos!

  • http://clarkkentslunchbox.blogspot.com/ Clark Kent’s Lunchbox

    Wow John. I felt the power of that one right in the gut. The thing about those moments in our life (and you know I’ve been there too… haven’t told you all the stories yet but eventually), but back to the importance of those moments is that it makes us value the real connections we have with people who care about us today.

    For a guy that can do a Elmo / Rodney Dangerfield impression like no one else, you sure know how to get raw and honest.

    kudos!

  • Patrick (yeah, that one)

    Nicely done, and I can easily comprehend those feelings… Which is part of why I stopped writing, actually. I keep thinking I need to pick it up again. But I don’t. :-p Good for you for keeping it going, and making it brilliant no matter if you’re dealing with darkness or light. :-)

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      you know what’s funny about that comment, patrick? i stopped writing for the better part of five years, only picking it back up after the triplets were born. i stopped b/c my thoughts were too negative. we’ve all got a voice inside our head that critiques us. and it can be our shepherd. yet it can also be our butcher.

      i’m writing now b/c i learned to blow the butcher off, and listen, instead, to the shepherd. knowing how brilliant you are, i feel you’re doing yourself a disservice for not writing. i hope you *do* pick it up again.

  • Patrick (yeah, that one)

    Nicely done, and I can easily comprehend those feelings… Which is part of why I stopped writing, actually. I keep thinking I need to pick it up again. But I don’t. :-p Good for you for keeping it going, and making it brilliant no matter if you’re dealing with darkness or light. :-)

  • Patrick (yeah, that one)

    Nicely done, and I can easily comprehend those feelings… Which is part of why I stopped writing, actually. I keep thinking I need to pick it up again. But I don’t. :-p Good for you for keeping it going, and making it brilliant no matter if you’re dealing with darkness or light. :-)

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      you know what’s funny about that comment, patrick? i stopped writing for the better part of five years, only picking it back up after the triplets were born. i stopped b/c my thoughts were too negative. we’ve all got a voice inside our head that critiques us. and it can be our shepherd. yet it can also be our butcher.

      i’m writing now b/c i learned to blow the butcher off, and listen, instead, to the shepherd. knowing how brilliant you are, i feel you’re doing yourself a disservice for not writing. i hope you *do* pick it up again.

  • TAD

    Been there myself at one time (although never quite so eloquently).

  • TAD

    Been there myself at one time (although never quite so eloquently).

  • http://www.almightydad.com Keith Wilcox

    Life is a pain in the butt when viewed in detail. But, You just live and die along with everyone else. The external details don’t matter when compared to your directing mind.

  • http://www.almightydad.com Keith Wilcox

    Life is a pain in the butt when viewed in detail. But, You just live and die along with everyone else. The external details don’t matter when compared to your directing mind.

  • http://www.almightydad.com Keith Wilcox

    Life is a pain in the butt when viewed in detail. But, You just live and die along with everyone else. The external details don’t matter when compared to your directing mind.

  • http://www.mybottlesup.com nic @mybottlesup

    you’re really fantastic… and that’s all there is to it.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      i love nic, y’all. met her in the atl and she’s exactly what one would think she is from reading her blog and following her.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      i love nic, y’all. met her in the atl and she’s exactly what one would think she is from reading her blog and following her.

  • http://www.mybottlesup.com nic @mybottlesup

    you’re really fantastic… and that’s all there is to it.

  • http://www.mybottlesup.com nic @mybottlesup

    you’re really fantastic… and that’s all there is to it.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      i love nic, y’all. met her in the atl and she’s exactly what one would think she is from reading her blog and following her.

  • Tom Matlack

    Yes, I used to live in that frame of mind a lot. I’d say a lot of my 20s. At 45 I would like to believe I NEVER feel like that any more (I’m cured right?). But that is bs. Many, many days I feel humble and grateful. But then there are those days when pain rears its ugly head as a reminder of work yet to be done.

  • Tom Matlack

    Yes, I used to live in that frame of mind a lot. I’d say a lot of my 20s. At 45 I would like to believe I NEVER feel like that any more (I’m cured right?). But that is bs. Many, many days I feel humble and grateful. But then there are those days when pain rears its ugly head as a reminder of work yet to be done.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      @tom

      i used to live in that frame of mind, too. i ran it back fast and hard in my 20s. too fast. too hard. i called that piece “tomorrow” b/c i knew i had to change. it’s just i wasn’t quite ready on that particular day. perhaps the next, i’d think. or the one after that. an eternity of tomorrows to get it done. but just not that day.

      this was written to (or at) an entity which i’ll call the catalyst for the unraveling of a life i thought was much more tightly bound. at the time it seemed like what was happening was the worst thing ever, but it was actually the best thing that could have ever happened to me.

      it’s nice to have the leader of the good men project stop by. tom’s site is one of the best sites out there. here’s their link.

      http://goodmenproject.com/

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      @tom

      i used to live in that frame of mind, too. i ran it back fast and hard in my 20s. too fast. too hard. i called that piece “tomorrow” b/c i knew i had to change. it’s just i wasn’t quite ready on that particular day. perhaps the next, i’d think. or the one after that. an eternity of tomorrows to get it done. but just not that day.

      this was written to (or at) an entity which i’ll call the catalyst for the unraveling of a life i thought was much more tightly bound. at the time it seemed like what was happening was the worst thing ever, but it was actually the best thing that could have ever happened to me.

      it’s nice to have the leader of the good men project stop by. tom’s site is one of the best sites out there. here’s their link.

      http://goodmenproject.com/

  • Tom Matlack

    Yes, I used to live in that frame of mind a lot. I’d say a lot of my 20s. At 45 I would like to believe I NEVER feel like that any more (I’m cured right?). But that is bs. Many, many days I feel humble and grateful. But then there are those days when pain rears its ugly head as a reminder of work yet to be done.

    • http://www.johncaveosborne.com john cave osborne

      @tom

      i used to live in that frame of mind, too. i ran it back fast and hard in my 20s. too fast. too hard. i called that piece “tomorrow” b/c i knew i had to change. it’s just i wasn’t quite ready on that particular day. perhaps the next, i’d think. or the one after that. an eternity of tomorrows to get it done. but just not that day.

      this was written to (or at) an entity which i’ll call the catalyst for the unraveling of a life i thought was much more tightly bound. at the time it seemed like what was happening was the worst thing ever, but it was actually the best thing that could have ever happened to me.

      it’s nice to have the leader of the good men project stop by. tom’s site is one of the best sites out there. here’s their link.

      http://goodmenproject.com/

  • http://www.realmendriveminivans.com PJ Mullen

    Well done, JCO. I had a bunch of writing like that from my younger, misguided, angrier days that, unfortunately, was all lost when my laptop got stolen a few years ago. Regrettably that also contained the book I was writing that provided me with the impetus for finally starting my blog. I’d say I’d like to go back in time and explain a few things to that version of me, but then again, I wouldn’t be who I am today without those experiences.

  • http://www.realmendriveminivans.com PJ Mullen

    Well done, JCO. I had a bunch of writing like that from my younger, misguided, angrier days that, unfortunately, was all lost when my laptop got stolen a few years ago. Regrettably that also contained the book I was writing that provided me with the impetus for finally starting my blog. I’d say I’d like to go back in time and explain a few things to that version of me, but then again, I wouldn’t be who I am today without those experiences.

  • http://www.realmendriveminivans.com PJ Mullen

    Well done, JCO. I had a bunch of writing like that from my younger, misguided, angrier days that, unfortunately, was all lost when my laptop got stolen a few years ago. Regrettably that also contained the book I was writing that provided me with the impetus for finally starting my blog. I’d say I’d like to go back in time and explain a few things to that version of me, but then again, I wouldn’t be who I am today without those experiences.

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